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Peace and Love For All #PrayForFrance

 

I was very saddened to hear  about the 84 innocent lives lost in Nice, France on Bastille Day due to yet another terrorist attack. My heart goes out to their untimely deaths, the injured, and the grief that their loved ones have to bear. It is also troubling to see what the rest of the world is coming to, such as the political issues of how the nations are getting divided, threatening to get rid of immigrants to make their nation great and “pure” again, how some people are fighting one another due to racial discrimination, the increasing level of hatred and violence, the denial of climate change because we keep destroying our very own planet which in turn causes more natural disasters, deaths of animals and humans.

 

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If only we learn how to understand, accept and love one another regardless of our religion and race, the color of our skin, where we came from, our gender identity, level of education, how much money we have etc, the world would be a better, peaceful place. We as human beings tend to think we are the only supreme beings on Earth. We lose sight of compassion due to our egos to prove we are better than everyone else, claim our religion is better, seek “happiness” by pursuing power, money, gratification and fame. I don’t want to judge anyone as we are here just trying to survive and deserve to find our own happiness and love.

 

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Religion was created by man, different people from other parts of the world worship their own God but who are we to judge and condemn others just because they have a different faith from us? That said if we look at the Ancient Scriptures and try to read between the lines of all of the religious books, from the Holy Bible to the Quran, they all say the same thing – We are all supposed to respect, love and accept one another, not to kill, destroy or prove we are better than anyone else. They also warn us that the “earthly desires” we seek in this physical world – be it power, money, possessions, control, lust, “romantic love” for example will blind us from finding true peace and happiness.

 

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We as humans, all have the gift of life and a conscience to choose between what is right and wrong, and the full capacity to love one another. We don’t have the right to take another life, or our own lives for that matter especially to ruin other people’s lives. We are all going to die eventually anyway, it could be today, could be tomorrow, or until we grow into a ripe old age.  When we die, all of what we have in this world and who we are with will not come with us! To seek “salvation” just because we read the book according to our religion we choose to follow but don’t try to understand what it really means,  think that we can judge/condemn everyone else (or kill other people with different faiths), believe that we will be “saved” and just sit around without trying to help or understand everyone else, is selfish! This is why there are still wars being fought and terrorism is sprouting its evil roots onto people’s minds who are unstable, isolated, angry, depressed and feel the need to “glorify” themselves by causing destruction. And no, I do not condemn Islam. I grew up with Muslims as I lived in a multi racial country that respects and teaches us to understand all forms of religion such as Christianity, Buddhism, Hinduism and Judaism, just to name a few.   Their  values are the same as everyone else who wants peace and to respect one another.

The hidden meaning behind seeking a relationship with Our Maker, is to serve him by helping and loving one another, to keep an open mind and respect the Earth that He gave to us, not to destroy it due to greed and conquests. We need to maintain a healthy balance of living and being spiritual. To find peace and happiness we have to repent and seek for forgiveness, even towards the people who have hurt or discriminated against us in the past. Praying and meditation helps a lot, to let go of the pain and anger and to be “present.”

 

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At times when I look at animals and their behaviour, I feel that they are better than us humans. The predators only kill to survive. They only attack to protect themselves, their territories, mates and off-springs. They try to stay together and protect one another. Animals, including some of the wild species are capable of forming loving bonds with humans. Nature can really teach us how to just “be” if we take a breather from our own heads and observe what she has to offer! Our lives our so short, lets make the most out of it.

 

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I am writing this as I was really moved by the issues that are plaguing our lives, and our planet, and the path towards our own destruction. I hope some of us can really look at reality and reflect on what we can do for each other every day. May we all eventually learn how to love and accept one another.

 

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Beauty Within, Global Awareness, Lifestyle, Mind and Spirit, Personal reflections

Who I am Underneath It All

 

I am going to be honest with you. I was having second thoughts about sharing this part about myself.

 

I write about what most people in our  world see as “beautiful” and covetable such as fashion, trends, beauty, health, food, celebrity news and photography as I am also a contributer for another online magazine.

 

However, I realized that I have to be true to myself and to others, and to not fear judgment from everyone else online. Let’s face it, We are all judged based on our looks, what we do for a living, how much money we make and our lifestyle.  Social media has amplified our visibility to connect to the world therefore, we are all under the influence and pressure to present ourselves in a way that our life is perfect. I am not judging anyone. As humans, we all seek attention, popularity and we are all naturally selfish and mostly vain. I am vain too, and what I do for a living as a model and fashion blogger also has a strong influence on how I have to present myself to look “beautiful”.

 

You are welcome to judge me as just another “model” from who I appear to be in my pictures and some of the posts that I write about. I know I can come across as just another girl who wants to seek fame and attention. But contrary to what most people may think, I branched out into acting and modeling initially because I have always hated myself. I never saw myself as a beautiful person. I could only feel happy when I was in front of the camera, and pretend to be another person. I am a shy person by nature, as I was put down, and experienced abuse a lot as a kid, I don’t really like to talk to people or get close to anyone due to what I experienced in my past.

 

Here it goes – I was raped at a young age. I was touched inappropriately by someone that I trusted ever since I was four years old. Another time was when I was seven and got lost in public, a stranger who pretended to want to help me, took it further. I had a hard time learning how to value myself. Even when I was a teenager and started my modeling career, I was also taken advantage of at some of my shoots. I never really fought back as I was so used to it. I barely told anyone about what I went through and how much I hated myself. Not even my family, who I wasn’t really close to as they had their own issues to deal with, I don’t blame them, I was just afraid of getting judged. Modeling and acting was a therapeutical way for me to express and reinvent myself through art to mask the pain I have felt throughout my entire life.

 

Now that I’m older and left home to live across the other side of the world to find myself, I am thankful to still be alive, survived what I have gone through and to have grown so much as a person. I have obviously changed my priorities in life, which is why I branched out into photography and writing apart from just modeling.

 

But the purpose of  writing this blog other than talking about just fashion, lifestyle, beauty is to share my journey of healing and seeing the beauty that is left in this world. Which is why I have found a profound love of photography, as it really lets me see the world differently and appreciate the simpler things in life.

 

I see beauty in every single person, in nature, in animals and what’s on the streets. I believe that we are all capable of finding peace no matter what we have through, we become more beautiful as we age, as we grow, as we reflect on what makes us who we are today.

 

You are most welcome to come along on this journey with me, of finding our purpose, and a sense of acceptance not just with ourselves but towards other people, whoever hurt or loved us. I am still finding my way in this world and how to heal myself. But I have this naive belief and hope, that sharing is caring, we are all put into this world for a reason, we are all connected, we are all made to love and accept one another regardless of our faith and where we came from, how much money we have, what we have been through.  We all bleed, cry, and just want to be loved and have a good life! Everyone has their own personal struggles and issues, in their own way.  So I hope that what I share can inspire others to feel better about themselves.

 

Thank you for taking the time to read this. And I can’t wait to continue to tell my story. You are most welcome to share your life stories with me too. Let’s start a movement in this crazy world we live in and learn how to support one another. Much love to all.

 

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